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Once Upon a Time in Reno…
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September 30, 2009 / Uncategorized

(yes, I’m going to give the neuroticism a break today – enjoy! Please also ignore any funky formatting and pretend it’s just *artsy*. Yeah, that’s it…)

…there was a boy named Zliten and a girl named Quix. They both worked at the “other mall” in town for after school jobs their junior years in high school. Quix worked at Hot

High School Senior Quix

Topic. Zliten worked at Sweet Factory. These stores were right across from each other. Zliten liked the crazy clothes and rebellious items in Hot Topic, so he was often in the store browsing and purchasing the wares. Quix had to get her candy fix occasionally, so she could be found in Sweet Factory getting a few sour ropes or some sour balls (I guess that shows what a sour girl she was).

After running into each other, Zliten found another reason to go into Hot Topic – to blush at the silly girl with the dark hair in the leather pants and try to make awkward conversation. Being that this silly boy, beyond being a little socially awkward, also was sporting a bit of a mullet, she would try to avoid him (and send other coworkers over if she needed a candy fix). He was relentless, but she was probably the most stubborn person you would ever know. One night at a party,

High School Zliten

she fixed him up with one of her best friends and they started dating. Then, a few months later, she started dating the dreamy looking guy at the Orange Julius stand.

None of her friends or family liked this guy, but being the stubborn girl Quix was, she stayed with him, on and off, for about 3 dysfunctional years. Zliten and said friend went away to college together across the country, broke up a year later, and scattered. Zliten came back to visit a few times to see his mom, but was living a few states away and liked it that way. Quix dreamed of a guy who was awesome and romantic and wouldn’t treat her like poop and would sit out on her balcony and ask the stars if they would please please send to her someone like that.

Then one day, Quix was hanging out with said boy, then ex, trying to do the friends thing – by the way – which only seems to work with responsible, patient people. It happened to also be the day that Zliten called

College Zliten: or Heath Ledger, you decide.

my cell (gotta love the brick I had in 1999) letting me know he was in town for a few days and wanted to escape his dwelling for a bit if anything was going on. Being not patient, nor responsible people, Quix and Jerky McLiarPants started screaming at each other not too long after, and she left all upset. She just needed to talk to someone, and his number was the first on the list having called just a bit ago, and she invited him to coffee.

It just so happened that Quix’s play was closing that night, and she was hosting the wrap party at her next door neighbor’s house (don’t ask). She got him two tickets. He

Sadly, the ONLY college Quix pic I have that's online. That would be me with the whip.

brought a date, she was trying to catch the attention of the male lead that she had been crushing on ever since the play was cast – but the two ended up together.

Fast forward through all the college awkwardness, and we both picked up and moved to San Diego two weeks after I graduated. Because it sounded like a neat place to live and it was anywhere but Reno. Not because we had any prospective jobs or ways to make money. But we found a little box, and got temp jobs testing video games after the credit cards ran out, and found out we were living in a great place to make a run of having that be our career, so we

Now we race together...

figured that would be awesome. Who wants to go back to graduate school and deal with academia politics when you can legally dream up ways to kill people (‘s avatars)?

Through that time, I was proposed to with onion rings and ring pops and the like. There was never a question that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with Zliten – but I always imagined *things* about getting married. For some reason, I had the age “30″ in my head. And getting my own life together first – including having a job title I was proud of and – probably more importantly – I was not getting married fat. Totally vain, I know. I could be immortalized in time skinny and

...play together...

poor and think “gee, glad I got that awesome job promotion the next year” and proudly hang the pictures up on the mantle. If I was rich and fat, they’d just stay in a box somewhere.

I finally agreed to a promise ring, which slowly got too small as I got bigger. Then, after things snapped into place in my head and I started project: deporkify and we had enough cash saved up to do the ring right, we finally got engaged. We bought the ring on a cruise to Mexico in March 2007, and then we surprised my mom by Zliten proposing at dinner that night.

I worked dilligently on losing weight and then last year, we finally set a date. May 9th,

...travel together...

2009. And then we kept changing our minds on what sort of wedding we wanted and didn’t set anything up in time, so then, we finally set another date last December. October 4th, 2009. And you’ve gotten to experience the frantic whirlwind since then.

So tomorrow, my dear Zliten and I, love of my life, king prince of silliness, hop on a jetplane with FOUR bags in tow (but hey – it all fits – YAY!) and a few days after that, we become Mr. and Mrs. Zliten. After 10 years (almost exactly to the date of the play closing), 3 states, 7 apartments/houses, and a whole lot of fun times, we’re finally making it official. Sure, I may not be at my “goal weight” and I

...wear hats together...

struggle with the fact that I could do more/be more and I’m stagnating at work, but the truth is, I’m not doing too badly. And it’s not as if this is the best I’m ever going to be in my life, oh no – just try and stop me. There are promotions to go after and races to run and get PRs and muscles to tone and all sorts of wonderful adventures yet to be discovered. Just with another ring on my finger and my wonderful husband at my side.

Have a wonderful week, blogland. I will be back with many pictures and stories to share. Though I have been told that it is absolutely inappropriate to tweet at my wedding (lolz, getting married now bbiab, kthx?), feel free to follow me on twitter or friend me on facebook if you think it might be interesting to hear how Vegas is going, I tend to update those a lot on vacation. Anyone want to share wedding day memories? How did you meet your significant other? Inquiring minds want to know…

...and will be getting married here together in just a few days.

Tags: gratitude, history, navel gazing, wedding
Day 9, 2 Days to Vegas
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September 29, 2009 / Uncategorized

Holy crapoli, it’s going fast. Didn’t I just write this for yesterday?

Project: Unfluffy Bride

Well, my calories got away from me yesterday. I forgot that what we had on tap for dinner was a 700 calorie beast (tuna macaroni and cheese with lots of peas and broccoli) and while I had a pretty light lunch, I snacked before and since we didn’t eat until after 8:30, I was full on hungry again and ate my full half of dinner as I forgot to make the salad that went with it. I clocked in at just over 1400 calories so I didn’t do myself TOO wrong, but I would have liked to be closer to 1200. Ah well. Today is for being better.

Then again, I worked out for about 2 hours yesterday in 3 inch heels. More on that below, but I definitely earned my dinner. I also got up this morning and had a euphoria-inducing 3.3 mile run, so I think I’ll survive (I definitely relished the run). I’m pretty happy that it’s TOM time up in the house (yeah, I know, just in time so it wouldn’t muck with my wedding day, thank you body of mine!) and I’m not even at the “oh crap” weight of 155 (I’m at 154.8, but still – 2 weeks ago I was pushing 158). I might not have seen under 150 before getting married because timing sucked, but I really think once I get back from Vegas I’ll be well on my way there.

Wedding Stuff:

Our private lesson hour was yesterday, and I showed up in my new sparkly shoes of hotness, and have to report that I was pretty much on them NONSTOP for 3 hours (2 of that dancing, 1 walking around doing dinner, etc) and just toward the end they started to be uncomfortable. And that was the first time breaking them in. Totally worth 60 bucks. I also made sure to dance in a floor length skirt, and didn’t seem to have trouble with that either, so super double bonus.

We told the instructor what song we wanted to do (Fly Me to the Moon) and asked what our options were. We tried out the basic steps to foxtrot and east coast swing and settled on swing. After learning west coast, east coast is much easier, at least for us. It just made more sense. We learned the basic steps, outside turns, inside turns, cuddles, how to walk on the floor and have him pull me in with a little twirl to start the dance, and a little dip for the end. In an hour. We have a lot of practicing to do, but we left feeling pretty confident that we’d be able to get it down. Triple step, triple step, rock step. 1 and 2, 3 and 4, 5, 6. And, the 90 minutes of actual dancing I figured we did burnt almost 600 calories.

We also spent the evening combing through the reception dance playlist and eliminating stuff that just didn’t work. It’s amazing how many songs have just a few curse words in them that you wouldn’t expect. And since we have kids there, we’re trying to keep it all family friendly, so that has to go. We’re trying to do a good mix of stuff for everyone and also be stuff WE want to hear. I love having the control of being able to play what we want, but it would sure be a lot less work having a DJ do it. Tonight, we go through the dinner play list the same way.

I didn’t actually pre-pack with the dance stuff going on, so that is tonight. I think that’s the last thing I’m really nervous about – how to get all the crap we need into our little bags. I’ve even pared down to 3 pairs of non-wedding shoes (I usually bring AT LEAST 5 pairs no matter where we are going or how long the trip is) and am planning to pack ONLY the clothes I need instead of a few “maybe” outfits to fit the rest of the stuff needed, but still. I’ve got about a full bag of wedding favor stuff, and then there is all the stuff I need to get me ready. We’ll make it work somehow. Just don’t know exactly HOW until tonight.

I really think it’s all coming together. Nothing crazy has come up this week yet. Just need to keep working on the music and packing and I think we’ll be able to get on that jetplane a-ok and all prepared.

Got something you think I’m forgetting? Want to tell me to stop stressing about not having anything really left to stress about? Hit me up.

Tags: calorie counting, dancing, unfluffy bride, wedding, Weight Loss
Monday, Day 8, 3 Days to Vegas
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September 28, 2009 / Uncategorized

OMG, it’s all happening. I’m just so ready to be on the plane and have everything, for the most part, out of my hands and done. Only 3 more days of work left.

Project: Unfluffy Bride

Well, you can’t eat (or at least I can’t eat) 1200-1300 calories all the time. That’s ok. I don’t think that’s really good for one’s well being anyway. Thursday, the stress of the week got to me and I had some cocktails on the patio. Friday night, I had this INSATIABLE craving for pizza, and between dinner and breakfast/lunch on Saturday, Zliten and I polished off a medium (which is, IMO, extremely responsible pizza eating). There may have been some baked chicken wings too, but I’m not telling.

Then Saturday night was our friend’s son’s birthday dinner – and their mom (an awesome gourmet chef) was cooking. She’s only in town a few times a year, and you just don’t refuse it. It is buttery, salty love. We headed over and there was homemade appetizer “pizza” (dough brushed with olive oil and garlic, cheese, and the most amazing tomatoes and peppers). Then dinner was roasted pork shoulder, some sort of barley side dish, asparagus, and blt salad (just like it sounds – lettuce with hunks of tomato, bacon, and some sort of homemade thousand-ish dressing). Then for desert, no churn super chocolate homemade icecream with homemade whipped cream on top. And to top it off, some more whiskey.

Then, the next day, Zliten was getting angry about his taco craving so we went to mexican and split a plate of fajitas. By the end of the day, I put my foot down and made a big batch of chicken tortilla soup so I could have a nice, lo cal dinner. As horrible as it all sounds, I did watch my portions pretty well and didn’t go nuts on anything. I didn’t mention the fruits and veggies I squeezed in. Of course I could have done better but I could have done way worse so no guilt here!

I also did not exercise at all. So for those of you counting last week, it was DDR and weights on Tuesday and Thursday, and recreational dance on Wednesday. I guess you can count a ridiculous amount of running around stores doing errands Saturday, but I don’t. Oddly enough, it felt good and natural and neither my mind nor body was screaming for me to get my ass up off the couch and do things. My weight was also the lowest it’s been in months on average. Therefore, it was totally deserved and good for me.

Here’s the stats-

Calories in for the week:

1271, 1275, 1278, 1451, 1392, 2208, 1494. Average = 1481 per day

Calories out for the week:

700, 300, 700 = 1700 Average = 242 per day

Average net calories for the week: 1239.

Weight: low = 152.4, high = 155.2

Hey, hey. I felt like I did NOTHING for the week. I knew it was good for me, but I felt like a lump on a log taking 3 WHOLE DAYS OFF IN A ROW. Getting used to eating so low on weekdays was a little stressful, but the fact that I was able to let loose over the weekend and still pull those numbers – I like it.

I HAVE to do a little more with my workouts this week. Just a little. Tonight is a private dance lesson, I am doing weights again on Tuesday and Thursday, and I am going to try to do 30 mins cardio on Tues/Wed/Thurs since I plan to just not even worry about it once I get on the plane. I’m packing workout clothes and I have shoes that I could hop on the elliptical with, but I really don’t think it’s going to happen. I had great fantasies of starting my wedding day with a nice early-morning run, but now that my hair has to be at least a day old, I think I’m going to refrain from sweating that day, thxuverymuch…

When I return, I think I’m going to keep on this (1200 during the weekdays when I can stand it, a little more on the weekends, lighter on the exercise) until I start half training again.

Wedding Stuff:

I think I can ease up on the bullet points. I’m now down to just a few items left on my to-do list. Here’s the updates:

Hair and makeup are settled. I was able to find a perfect lipstick (for 7 bucks), and after much ado… I decided I’m going to wear my hair completely down, with a big orange flower poking out the side. The method to my madness is that I’m going to wash it the day before, apply mousse for volume, dry it straight, and then use the flat iron and some de frizzy stuff to tame it. Then the morning of, I’m going to flat iron and de friz again, and then use big curling iron and make some waves, and spray it so it holds.

The reason I went with it that way – I kept trying these elaborate styles that looked great from some angles and not from others, or they were REALLY prone to looking good for a little while and then they’d be in danger of falling out. I didn’t want to spend the day worrying about what my hair was doing. I did a half up do which I was somewhat happy with and showed Zliten and he liked it well enough, and then I took it all down, stuck a flower in it, and left to go party. After hitting the bathroom, I realized I really liked what was there. I asked Zliten what he thought and he said he liked my hair best right then out of anything I showed him. And really, who do I want to look pretty for on my wedding day? My groom, of course. And I can’t say that I’m unhappy that it’s low maintenance – my makeup routine takes about 10-15 minutes, and now my hair the day of should take about 20 max. I’m still going to leave myself 2 hours, but it’s nice to know that it should take me less than an hour to go from 0 to bride.

The reception timeline and music are pretty much settled. I’m going to spend the rest of the week paring down the playlists as I have about 5 hours of dinner music and 5 hours of dancing music. Considering we’ve got a 4 hour reception in total, that’s too much. Might as well pick the stuff I really like so it has a better chance of being played. The master of ceremonies has been notified with the timeline and what to do. I think we’re pretty set here!

Centerpieces have been drama but it’s all better now. We went and looked at craft stores, and I found the PERFECT 7 dollar candle holder. Then, I talked to Zliten’s mom and she offered to pick them up and bring them since they are driving. THEN, she couldn’t find them at their local store and went around looking for other things but to no avail. I was bummed. Then, I went online yesterday and found out I could order them from the website for FIVE bucks each and rush shipping was only 10 bucks more. So for 70 bucks, the centerpieces are dealt with (I even ordered 2 extra in case something broke).

Lets see, what else… The guest book and the parents gifts are taken care of. I got some REALLY SEXY dancing shoes that cost 60 bucks, but I will SO wear again. They are silver and sparkly and strappy and hawt and COMFY (ok, so they’re not tennis shoes but I walk and dance my way around the house for 10 minutes and not want to rip them off). I was going to post pictures but you will just have to wait! I did my nails and am very happy with the color (sort of an orange-y coral color – not orange enough to scream halloween, but not pink enough to make me vomit). I did the great eyebrow pluck and since I forced myself to be patient and go slow, I’m VERY happy with the results, just gonna do one more retouch one morning when I see if there are any stray hairs I missed. Our private dance lesson is today and after that I think we’ll be prepped to dance!

The only thing left really is to pack. I’ve started a list but didn’t actually get to taking stuff and putting it in bags. That’s tonight, I believe. So much stuff, so little bag space.

It is all happening. Crazy! I’m much more excited than stressed/nervous now, so I’m liking that. See you lovelies tomorrow.

Tags: calorie counting, dancing, ddr, unfluffy bride, wedding, Weight Loss, weights
Day 5, 6 Days to Vegas
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September 25, 2009 / Uncategorized
Wow, less than a week. Freeeeaky! The updates continue!

Maybe I don't wanna be THIS unfluffy...

Project: Unfluffy Bride

Well, yesterday the week finally got to me and I broke down and cracked open the bottle of grey goose on the counter as an appetizer, and didn’t end up getting to bed ’til well after 1am. Normally I’m not this irresponsible on a weeknight, and I had originally had a curfew of 11pm, but I just kept *notwanting*. So I didn’t.

The good news: I totally worked it in my calories for the day. I may not have been in the 1200′s, but I wasn’t over 1500. Besides being a little low on my fat for the day, I got at least the minimum of all the main nutritional stuffs I should. I also did both a weights session in the morning and a nice, easy DDR session at night.

The bad news: I drank about 400 calories of vodka and ate a very meager dinner (a veggie burger and a fat free hot dog and half a serving of baked cheetos) so I am STAAAARVING right now. Since I did it to myself though, my body can deal. Pho is on the menu in about 10 minutes though, which is both low cal and filling, so I’ll be ok, don’t cry for me, Argentina. It’s just been a rough, growly tummy morning.

The numbers: 152.4 (yay!), 1454 calories.

I have no idea whether I’m going to work some cardio in tonight, but that’s the goal. I don’t think the rest is doing me badly at all. Next week I might step it up *justalittle* because I will have some mandatory days off, but not much.

Hmmm, relaxing for who?

Wedding Stuff:

Since I’ve drilled down to a finite list, I’m going to stick with the bullet points.
- Hairdo. No progress last night, but I washed, moussed, blow dried mostly straight, and defrizzied it this morning. I was laaaaazy last night but day 6 of unwashed tresses just wasn’t happening. It did straight not horribly, but it still is kinda frizzy. I’m going to give it a day to settle down and tomorrow it’s more heat abuse with straight iron and curling iron time. I also have to remember that my hair does straight MUCH better in bone dry Nevada than muggy central Texas when I make my decision.
- Makeup. Just didn’t make it to the store. Gonna do that this weekend. I hope the color works!
- Music. We’ve been working through what we want and don’t seem to be butting heads too much so that’s nice! Ideas for the processional/recessional in the ceremony: Jason Mraz – I’m Yours, Israel Kamakawiwo’ole – Somewhere Over the Rainbow, or maybe some instrumental steel drums/ukulele stuff. Through dinner we’re going to play stuff like said music above, plus Beach Boys, Elvis, Buena Vista Social Club, Jimmy Buffet, Doh Ho, Gotan Project, and the like. We still need to pick out all the “special” songs like our entrance and the bouquet toss and the like.
- We’ve made a reception time line that I’m pretty happy with. There was some drama and uncertainty around the “announcement” part (where we make our entrance), but we decided that just we will be announced, and then introduce/thank the whole wedding party during toasting time. The timeline also gets most of the important stuff done by 4 so if some people need to hit the airport to get home that evening (since the reception was only supposed to be 2 hours), they will only be missing the garter/bouquet toss.
- Centerpieces. The estimate came back at 50 per centerpiece, so 400 overall. Now it’s time to weigh how much I could save by doing them myself vs how much less stress it will be to have them done. Plus, do I think bouquets that match my bridal one will be better than something less traditional and non-flowery. I’m going to price things at the craft store this weekend and see if it’s even worth trying to do my own and decide by Monday.
- Guest book. Still need to hit that this weekend.
- Parents gifts. Got the frames (though one is scuffed so I’m going to exchange it), now just need to get an appropriate picture (now that my hair is no longer standing on end on it’s own).
- Dancing shoes. On the list for this weekend.
- Victoria’s secret – I’ve been told that it’s really not necessary, so I think I’m going to skip it.
- Going to also skip the robe in favor of a button down shirt – it’s less to pack.
- Dance-y time. There is another open practice on Saturday Sunday for free, and we have a private lesson on Monday.
- Beauty time for Quix. Time to do the final eyebrow pluck and do a test run with the nailpolish I bought to make sure I don’t hate it.
- Pre-pack everything this weekend we want to take to make sure it all fits in our bags and we don’t need to either borrow bigger bags from the ‘rents or share the wealth and ask some of our friends to tote a wedding favor or 2 up there for us.
So, here’s the to do list:

Today:
- Work on reception song list.
This weekend:
- Go to Target (makeup), craft stores (for centerpiece pricing, guest book, and to exchange the frame), and go shoe shopping (dance shoes for me and Zliten).
- More makeup and hair trial runs. Realize that a simple, classic ‘do is probably going to be less stress and look better in the photos than something super complicated.
- Take and frame the parents pictures and write out the notes that go along with them.
- Pluck the eyebrows and do the nails.
- Get as much dance practice in as possible.
- Pre-pack at least once to get an idea of how many bags we need and if there is anything else we need to add to the target list.
- Finalize reception song list.
Done by Monday:
- Decision on the centerpieces
- Know if we need to offload any items to friends/family
Next week: try not to freak out and deal with all the things that come up that are NOT on the list. I really really have to thank my parents for dealing with all the family questions/issues/whatevs on their side, as I don’t think I could handle it right now.

Yeah, can tell I’ve been documenting at work lately. I get super bullet pointy. I do also hope to get a bike adventure in sometime too, as it is too gorgeous of a weekend to waste EVERY hour plotting and scheming wedding stuff. What do you think on the centerpieces? Should I spring for them to be just *takencareof* or go with the “Screw that, I can do it on my own – cheaper and BETTER!” attitude I’ve had with most of the wedding. Any favorite/clever songs you can think of for the fun stuff like our entrance, cutting the cake, garter toss, or just your favorite beachy or wedding music in general? Take care, blogoverse and have a great weekend!

Fail pictures today, because it’s funny. And the day is FAILING to already be over. Yep, that’s it…
Tags: calorie counting, dancing, Drinking, Food, unfluffy bride, wedding, Weight Loss
Day 4, 7 Days To Vegas
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September 24, 2009 / Uncategorized
Holy freaking cow. One week. I get on the plane in ONE WEEK. I’m feeling good about how everything is coming along, but sheesh. That’s very very soon. Here’s a short update on everything.

Project: Unfluffy Bride

So yesterday I wrote I gained all the weight back that I was so happy to lose weighing in Tuesday. I thought about it and realized there were two things I did differently between the two days. First of all, I gave myself the day off working out on Monday. Second, I had food pretty late. Yesterday I decided to do both of those again (sorta). I ate dinner by 8 and only had a hershey kiss after. I also didn’t do any traditional workout, Zliten and I just went to practice our West Coast Swing for an hour.

So the verdict? I woke up today at 153.8 lbs. So no more working out ever again, because that’s the way I lose weight, right? Well, in my case, maybe. I thought back on this year, and the “rest periods” I’ve given myself from regular workouts have been approximately 3-4 days in February when I was sick and 2 long weekend vacations where I was walking 3-7 miles per day anyway (both Vegas and New Orleans). I think I’ve earned myself a little siesta week or 2. I think it may possibly been why we have fought so hard on this weight loss thing. I’m getting plenty of sleep, but maybe not enough rest.

While there is still that little voice in my head saying “if you stop pushing hard you’ll never be able to get it back” it’s only a whisper. I know I can train up to doing anything as hard as I need to. I worked up to a half marathon and was scared I could never run fast again (my 5ks were barely under 30 mins pushing as hard as I can). Now I’m at 26-ish 5ks, and worried that I’ll never be able to run more than 6 miles again, heh. My little goldfish brain always fails to remember that it takes a while to train my body certain ways, and that I can beat any goal for which I properly train and give myself adequate time.

Anyhoo, I did weights this morning and am probably going to do some moderate cardio this evening, either some DDR or go for an easy run if I’m so inclined after work. But I may not. It feels good to give myself that freedom this week.

Wedding Stuff:

I said yesterday that working with this wedding coordinator is like working with a plank with a nail in it. She has been the most frustrating, obtuse, and perhaps un-people-friendly person to deal with. She sent emails to Zliten and then started berating me over my email about not answering her questions. I was polite through the whole thing although I had NO IDEA what she was talking about, and then once we figured it out we explained to her that she had been sending emails to just him and I don’t see those, and asked if she would cc both of us on all further emails.

The next email, again, just went to me. No apologies, no small talk, didn’t even acknowledge she had screwed up. Sigh. Like the little button I have from some of the events – this is so going in my yelp review. Right now though, we’re pretty much done dealing with her unless we have last minute guest additions, and I am still deciding on the table linen colors (depending on the centerpieces). Seriously, I hope this is the only time in my life where I spent more than 2 minutes worrying about table linens.

So I think the to-do and deal with list (oh, my lovely, lovely lists) is down to a finite and tangible amount of stuff:
- Hairdo. My problem with this is I’m now on day 5 of no washing. This product gives my hair amazing longevity and I’ve been VERY LAZY about washing it. I’ve also not been drenched in sweat so much. Tonight is washy time and I’m going to try it dried straight to see if I like that better. However, I’ve been INCREDIBLY pleased with the curly stuff. I want to know EXACTLY what I’m going to do with it by Monday and practice it every day next week.
- Makeup. I’m pretty set on what I want to do, I just have been using this lipstick with a beautiful color – but comes off if you even look at it funny. I think I’ve found something suitable in my normal cover girl stay-forever lipstick stuff, just need to pick it up this weekend.
- Music. We still need to put the music we want for the processional and recessional on a CD (as we don’t really want the traditional stuff, I want island-y stuff). We need to have some similar stuff for the reception during dinner and before dancing. Then, we need to make a fun dancy playlist. This is going to take a bunch of time this weekend.
- Reception timeline and coordinating that with our Master of Ceremonies. Since our reception was extended last week (without even asking – we had reserved 2 hours and they gave us 4), we’re going to do most of the “fun stuff” at the beginning and then spend the last 1.5 hours just dancing/drinking etc.
- Centerpieces. I’m going to plan on just getting my own (and am prepared with some ideas), but if the flower arrangements come back as a cheap/easy thing to do, then we’ll go with that.
- Guest book. Just have to pick this up this weekend.
- Parents gifts. Think we have it figured out. We’re going to buy nice frames, take a goofy picture of us with an “We love you” sign, and write a note that these will be replaced with our favorite wedding photo after the fact.
- Dancing shoes. I got great shoes, however, they’re not great for dancing. I found a pair in my collection that I don’t HATE, however, I’d like something more appropriate. Gonna go shopping for that this weekend.
- Victoria’s secret? Maybe? This weekend if I can fit it in.
- Sort of want a robe to get ready in before I put on the dress, but probably can just be ok with a button down shirt.
- Dance-y time. There is another open practice on Saturday for free, and we have a private lesson on Monday.
- Beauty time for Quix. Time to do the final eyebrow pluck and do a test run with the nailpolish I bought to make sure I don’t hate it.
- Pre-pack everything this weekend we want to take to make sure it all fits in our bags and we don’t need to either borrow bigger bags from the ‘rents or share the wealth and ask some of our friends to tote a wedding favor or 2 up there for us.
And…I think that’s it. Sounds like a lot, but it’s a list. And if it’s on a list, I can check it off. And I feel good about that. Pics today from icanhascheezburger.com, because when are LOL cats not appropriate. Until tomorrow!
Tags: calorie counting, dancing, Food, unfluffy bride, wedding, Weight Loss
Day 3, 8 Days to Vegas
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September 23, 2009 / Uncategorized

Quick update because I don’t have that much to share, but blogging daily is helping me relieve a little stress this week…soooo….

Project: Unfluffy Bride

Yesterday I was so excited about my 3 lb loss. I felt all spiffy and like I had found the answer. It motivated me yesterday to stay on track and keep my calories low and I actually wasn’t even grumpy about it. I don’t know if it was mind games or the fact that I ate really healthy yesterday so I had plenty of low calorie food like spinach and salad and soup and gardenburgers and all such things – but I wasn’t even miserable about it.

I got up this morning and stepped on the scale, happy and ready to face the day. It spit back at me 155.2. Yep, that’s all but 0.2 lbs gained back. Yesterday was a freaky fluke. Hello, motivation killer.

But I’m going to keep on it. I am weirdly enjoying this lazy period of very little exercise, my body is probably in need of a break. Today I was going to run, but I decided a dance class tonight sounded more up my alley. I figure that it’s only 8 days (and the weekend will probably be a little higher anyway), so I might as well see what happens. I know I’ll want to return to hard training soon, and I cannot train well without increasing my calories, so this is very temporary.

Some positives though – I also decided to give up coffee (my one cup of decaf) and instantly my stomach hasn’t been feeling as bloated. Tea isn’t as good in the morning, but I know that’s a conditioned response of having coffee each morning. And I need to splurge on better tea (I got the cheapest generic stuff and it tastes like cinnamon sticks and water). All around eating less has made me choose what goes in my mouth very carefully, and I think I’m eating healthier in general. I feel slimmer, which is really the point, right? I’m not sure if it’s psychological or what, but the pooch is smaller than normal this week.

Wedding Stuff:

I have secured a ride to the craft store to deal with centerpieces the day before. She seems excited about it, so that’s good. I am still going to check on the flowers because they will be easier, but I have a feeling it’s going to be much more cost efficient to do something ourselves.

The next thing on the radar is parents gifts. We’ve already taken care of the rest of the wedding party – but this is just hard. My parents don’t go for kitchy things at all, like the sappy poem plaques and the hankies, and crap. My parents and Zliten’s parents are just about opposite in every way, and we’d like to do the same thing for them so neither feels slighted. Gift cards feel so impersonal. I’d love to say we’re all going on a cruise next year, but that’s a LOT of money and I don’t what the time off situation will be like for everyone. For my parents, they usually give a hint of what they want for Christmas, and for all other holidays we usually get them a card and take them to dinner. I see a lot of traditional gifts are a frame with a wedding photo – well, that’s nice and all, but we won’t have the photos for a while…. any ideas?

Besides that, we just have the reception timeline and playlist (going to work on that this weekend), tinkering with my hair some more, buying lipstick (but thanks to a magazine ad in fitness I think I’ve found both the brand and the color I need), and purchase some dancing shoes for the reception – sandals might be comfy and all, but they’re hard to dance in… didn’t think I’d need TWO pairs of shoes for my wedding, heh. The other thing I need to do this weekend is pre-pack everything to make sure it all fits in the suitcases we’re taking.

Too much to do, not enough time to do it. That is the motto of the day…

Tags: calorie counting, Food, unfluffy bride, wedding
Day 2, or 9 Days Until Vegas…
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September 22, 2009 / Uncategorized

I am officially going to forgo even the NOTION that I’m going to put together well thought out, informative posts until such time as I return from Vegas and am a happily married lady. So, for the next two weeks, welcome to my stream of consciousness. Here’s zee updates.

Project: Unfluffy Bride

Well, well, well. I guess the voice in the back of my head was right. See, I was trying “you can lose weight AND be as active as you are and eat like a normal human, really, you can do it!”…but I really suspected that it was more like “to lose the last 20 lbs, you’re going to have to go through some serious pain”. Both in terms of working out less than I want to, and eating less than I want to. I’m 2 days in and feel weak. I don’t feel like I could go out and run for an hour today. I did 30 mins of DDR and about 30 mins of weights, and I’m BEAT. And this is after 2 full days (one unplanned) off. Tomorrow I’m HOPING to go for a relaxed 5k jog but I’m not even sure I’ll be up for it.

The upside: I’m down 3 lbs. From yesterday. Pre-workout I weighed 153.0 and post workout I weighed 152.4. Yesterday I was at 155.4. Last week, my LOW weight was 156.4. I don’t expect to continue to see results like this (nor do I want to – it’s just not healthy), but it is giving me the sign that this is the right thing to do. If I can continue to lose a few ounces each day, I might even make my previous goal of being under 150 by the time I leave for Vegas. If I find success with this method and want to continue after the wedding, I don’t think I can do it all the time. I’m thinking maybe 1 week on, 1 week off or something.

So Monday Stats:

Numbers: 1271 calories in, 0 calories workout.

Mood: sorta dismal. It didn’t help that I really front loaded my day with the calories (150 cal breakfast, 600+ calorie lunch since I went out to tex mex, and 50 calories fruit snack), but then I had to hit the grocery store hungry right after work, and it was PACKED. By the end of the trip I was *overit*. I had planned to do a short workout that evening but I was even more *overit*, so instead we had dinner. Dinner was actually delicious and filling (a filet and a half of mahi mahi in lemon pepper, rice, and stir fry veggies), but then later we flipped on food network and it was Diners, Drive Ins, and Dives. Yeah, that’s helpful after day 1 of calorie restriction.

However, I have to say – seeing 152 point something on the scale made it worth it. This may be the first time since my race I’ve been that low. I was fearing that after the day I had it was going to be up to like 157 or something and I was going to be posting a very different thing today. Today should be easier since I don’t have to navigate a restaurant menu and have big, filling, healthy meals planned, plus I’ve already got my workout done so I don’t have to worry about anything this evening.

Wedding Stuff:

It’s really hard to do this all remotely. For example, they’re asking me about the table linen colors, and it’s hard to tell what they mean by purple – and saying deep purple isn’t really clearing it up (is deep purple plum or violet or what). I’m going to walk into everything never having seen the cake, the flowers, etc – and that’s making me a little nervous. What I do have to keep remind myself is… no one is going to remember if the table linens don’t exactly match the cake which doesn’t exactly match my colors and bouquet.

I’m still finding out how much centerpieces are going to be if they just take care of them, but I’m going to venture that it will be cheaper to do them myself. The plan right now (unless the flowers end up being supah cheap) is to get to a craft store in Vegas the day before and pick up something, whether it be the tea lights/mirrors/flower petals idea or oversized glasses with something in them (I’d love to put real fish in them – how cool would that be – but since no one is really local, I don’t know what we’d do with them after).

Other things on the list include reception timeline (what happens when so our master of ceremonies can keep stuff moving along), reception play list, some of the wedding party gifts, a few hair and makeup details for me, and I think that’s about it. Oh yeah. And deciding whether to do purple and white linens or just white. Hate that I don’t see anything until the day of. Wish they could send over pictures – it’s kinda what I expected. I’m a visual person, SHOW ME the color, don’t describe it. Le sigh.

Anyone else have something cool to report? My favorite thing right now is that it’s 12:30 and just about time to eat. Hooray!

Images today by toothpastefordinner.com because…well, I wanna.

Tags: calorie counting, Food, unfluffy bride, wedding
Another One Bites The Dust…
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September 21, 2009 / Uncategorized

Weeks that is. Time is flying so freaking fast. I’m surprised it’s not Christmas already. What’s been going on in my world?

Sweat rings R hawt.

5k race:

I was up at the butt crack of dawn (6 am) before it was light and got ready for the race. We didn’t get out of the house until 7 and were on our way! At about 7:30 we realized that the website gave the wrong directions – luckily, we found other people that were lost and they had found a couple going for a walk in the area, who pointed them in the right direction. We followed them and got to the race around 7:45, and got registered and a number and headed to the start line just in time. I made my way up close to the front of the line so I didn’t have to wade through the walkers/easy joggers and Zliten stayed at the back.

The course was awesome and rough at the same time. Awesome – because there was nothing but one slight uphill (which we hit twice because it was a two lap course), and it was in this beautiful park/nature preserve area which always makes for a nice experience. The rough was that although 1/3 of the course was on sidewalk, 1/3 was in grass/slightly muddy dirt, and 1/3 was on a trail with HUGE STICKS. That surprised the hell out of me and I probably lost some time the first lap, but the second time around I just ran to the side of it, and it didn’t bother me much. Also – they had mile 1 marked, but not mile 2 (or mile 3, but that was pretty obvious). I was wondering why the second mile seemed so long when I got to the finish, tee hee.

I finished with an official time of 26:31, which included the few seconds to get to the start line (since it was not chip timed). Zliten finished in 35:54 and it’s one of his best 5k times yet! I got through the finish line and walked back, grabbed him water, found him on the course and then ran with him the rest of the way almost to the finish. I placed 11th out of 76 females and 72nd out of 177 people overall. Although I didn’t get my goal time, I did set an official race PR by 48 seconds and am pretty happy with my performance. The race happens each month on the 3rd Saturday, so we’re going to go back next month and try again!

One thing I noticed – does anyone else that races notice this – around mile 1.5-2 I start getting REALLY over it. There is enough of the race left that I’m not getting the “I’m almost there” boost, and you’re far enough in to have the tireds set in. I ran at an 8:33/mile pace. My first mile was 8:18 (that’s the only one I know because of the mile marker issue), and I’m pretty the last mile was pretty close to that. My second mile had to have been over 9 minutes because I just felt so bleh and tired. I hope to figure that one out by next month. If I could stop losing my ooomph in the middle of 5ks, I’d run much better times.

Tee hee, couldn't resist this picture...

Project: Unfluffy Bride:

This is starting officially today and ends October 1st. I’m attempting to eat as close to 1200 calories as I can per day, and modifying my cardio a bit so my appetite doesn’t incapacitate me. The plan is to do 30 mins cardio 4 days this week (running or DDR), 2 weights sessions, and a bike adventure sometime this weekend. I’m allowing myself to do less if I need, or a *little*more if I feel like, but that’s the plan.

The last few days weren’t terribly successful, and they averaged out to about 1700 calories per day instead of the 1500 I’d like, but I am starting off at 155.4 today instead of in 157 silly town, so I must have done SOMETHING somewhat right. Wish me luck with the rest of this week. My first challenge: lunch with the girls today at Tex Mex…

Wedding stuff:

One week four days until I’m hopping on a jetplane to Vegas to get hitched.   Most of the details are dealt with, but there is still a lot to do. Right now, the item of the day to figure out is centerpieces – the hotel said decorations were included (which we thought meant centerpieces), but after we pressed them for details, the only thing they actually provide is a black candle holder with a lit candle in it. Not exactly tropical themed.

Now, we have two options. The first is to get centerpieces done to match my bouquet (orange, purple, and white). I am finding out today how expensive this is. The other option is to bring my own centerpieces, and my parents had a great idea of a small circular mirror, some tea lights, and flower petals. Since we have a bunch of other stuff to decorate the tables with (leis, flower hair clips, tropical confetti, those silly little drink umbrellas, etc), we don’t need something HUGE, but just something at the center would be cool.   Any suggestions/ideas?

The makeup is going well. I went on a little spree this weekend and am now much better prepared. I went with the bare minerals starter kit for fair skin, and am incredibly happy with it. At first I was a little nervous that it was going to be too light – but it looked amazing after it was done.   The rest of the routine involves the pinks look that I did last week, but my awesome maid of honor V gave me some blush and is letting me borrow some bronzer. Hooray!

The hair progress is going a little slower, but ok. Got2Be hair luster lotion is amazing. I hope to never live without this product ever, ever again. I, right now, am on 3 day hair I’ve slept on twice and have not brushed, and there is nothing sticking up as long as I apply a little of this at my roots every morning. I went for a curly look (hence, why I haven’t brushed it) and used Fructis Wonder Waves spray. It makes the hair a little crunchy, which I don’t really want for the wedding, but for daily use, it’s awesome! Like I said, it’s 3 days from being washed, and I still have nice, defined curls as long as I spray it on every morning. None of these products take very long to use, so I can see keeping up with it at least some of the time. I didn’t get a really good picture of this, but I’ll try to take one tonight. I plan to wash my hair then and try something different.

So… yeah. Any advice for the centerpieces? Run any races this weekend? Wanna tell me what your favorite low calorie super healthy go to meal is? Hit me up.

Tags: race, running, unfluffy bride, wedding
Thingity Things of This Week
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September 18, 2009 / Uncategorized

I don’t have that much to say but figured since Friday is a normal posty day, I should at least ramble about things and goings onses.

Running:

5k tomorrow! I’m excited and a little nervous to see if I can get my 26 flat time or better, but I think I’m more excited as it’s Zliten’s first race! Woohoo! Never did I think I was going to get him to run with me but now he seems to quite like it. Endorphins FTW! I feel good and prepared – yesterday I went for a nice, easy run to keep my legs loose and I kept wanting to go fast. That means the legs are rested. Check. This morning, I did a nice long yoga, and the plan tonight is relaxing, and more relaxing. Checkity check. Good race prep.

After the race, we are going to see my parents for a belated birthday lunch of BBQ. Alliterations FTW! Then, some shopping to procure makeup/hair/other stuff… it’s gonna be a busy and long day. I may demand a nap!

Day 1 of project: unfluffy bride:

Well, my plan was to hit the top of my range today and that I did (going over by 10 calories). My lunch was bigger than I would have liked, but I had a pretty light dinner to compensate and only ate my 2 pieces of fruit for snax rather than digging into the nuts or seeds or whatnot.

I’m seeing 2 problem areas. One I rocked last night, one I didn’t. My first “shoving things in my cakehole when I shouldn’t” time was right after I got home from work. To put things in perspective – I had a 200 calorie breakfast, about a 650 calorie lunch, and about 100 calories in snacks, so I wasn’t starving in the least. I then realized it had become a habit to eat out of the pantry when I got home. I had the same issue after the run and before dinner. The conversation with myself went something like:

Munchy self: “Mmm, I’m a bit peckish. Let’s have a snack. These baked cheese doodles look rather tasty.”

Self that wants to be unfluffy: “No! Dinner is coming soon. You just had fruit. You are not going to faint dead if you don’t stuff your face.”

MS: “But how about some veggies and hummus *cough*andpitachips*cough*. That’s heatlhy, right?”

STWTBU: “NOT ON THE CALORIE PLAN! STOP IT!”

MS: “Ok, then fine. How about we go for the stir fry veggies leftover. It’s veggies. You can’t say no to veggies, right?”

STWTBU: “NO! It’s the principal of things. Today it’s veggies, tomorrow I’m back to the cheese doodles dipped in cheese spread (yes, I did it, and I won’t apologize, it was FUCKING YUMMY).”

MS: “We can eats it with our fingerses! If you don’t use plates and utensils it has no calories…”

STWTBU: (almost believes it and has the tupperware open and then slams it shut) “Wait, NO! That isn’t right. I’m leaving the kitchen now…”

MS: *grumblegrumble* “Fine, we’ll discuss this later.”

I won the first round but lost the second. We had a good friend over, and we happened to have his birthday cheesecake sitting in our fridge from another friend. After a lovely, light, and healthy dinner, I cut them big slices and me a little slice. Then it just looked too sad and little so I added another sliver (but it was still about half their size). My Zliten went ahead and left half his cheesecake and when I took it in, MS won as I mowed down the rest of it. Le sigh.

Regardless, I’m back on it and ready to fight another battle today. The stats from yesterday:

1560 calories. Only “notsogood” things eaten were a few tortilla chips at lunch and the cheesecake incident. Everything else was totally on plan.

Did a slightly less than 3 mile run and full body weights. My guesstimate is about 600 calories burnt.

Weighing in at 156.4 this morning. Not great, but closer to being under my freak out weight than yesterday.

Hair and Makeup Adventures:

Well, I took the night off. My face was feeling kinda dry and my hair kinda dirty and frizzy, and figure it wasn’t worth it. I was going to try to do a look with more browns/coppers, but I actually don’t have a lipstick that goes with those tones, and while eyeshadow under chapstick works in a pinch, it wasn’t worth it. I’m going to try again after I get my list o new stuff to play with. I’m pretty confident with my makeup after this week, and I have two weeks to figure out the hair stuff and I’ve had LOTS of great advice! Thanks so much!

I’m going out tomorrow with the intent of picking up the Got2B Smooth Operator Smoothing Luster Lotion, some bare minerals foundation/powder/concealer, and maybe some other fun and exciting stuff like mousse/gel/etc for volume. Anyone have any opinions on diffusers vs just using a low setting on my dryer and cupping the hair in my hands? I hate to spend the money on it because I rarely do my hair curly, but if it’s the one and only thing that’s going to make this work, I’ll spring for it.

Have a great weekend! Wish me luck at the race and then with figuring out the ‘do. Honestly, more nervous about the ‘do as there will be other races, but only ONE WEDDING. Geez, I sound like such a girly girl there. Ah, well. I’ll be back Monday with results on both. If you’d like to know more immediately, follow me on twitter or friend me on facebook (name is Leah Ruben, and I’m the one with the vintage gymnastics profile pic).

And I just have to end it on this…

Tags: fashion, navel gazing, race, running, unfluffy bride, wedding
Putting A Stake In The Ground…
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September 17, 2009 / Uncategorized

I was going to wait until Friday to post, but I have THINGS TO SAY. So today it is.

After looking down at 157 point something for the second day in a row, I have had enough. I am fed up. This whole eating more intuitive bullshit is not working for me. I don’t get mad at myself very often but I was fuming on the way to work (it also didn’t help that I had done weights this morning which always make me feel – ROAR). I was hoping that I had just been starving myself and somehow magically eating more was going to heal me and make me finally lose the weight. Apparently, this is NOT the case. I’ve given it time, it’s just time to face that it’s not working.

Let’s check the cold, hard facts. I have been trying this more eating for about 2 months now. I did about 1 week at reduced calorie-ness, and before that I was training. Let’s look at the weight trend. April was my low month, maintaining around 150-152. Half training took me up a little, but that was ok. I was around 152-154. After, I could never quite shake the weight and was more like 153-155, but the 155s are rare. Now, since NOLA vacation, my weeks are a rare 154 and more like 155-157. I HAVE GAINED 5 LBS SINCE APRIL. I can’t even lie to myself and say it’s because I fluctuate, my range has gone up and now I’m barely ever weighing in UNDER my “oh shit” weight of 155. Not cool man, not cool.

So today, I put a stake in the ground. I may have gone from my goals of under 140 by the wedding, to my goal of under 150 by the wedding, to now, please dear fluffy lord let me get back to where I was during half training. However, I know what it’s gonna take. Maybe other people can eat more, but obviously I can’t. I knew success at a lower calorie intake, so at least for the next two weeks (because yeah, I get on a plane to Vegas 2 weeks from today), I’m back to doing what I know works even if the numbers don’t make sense. And hey, if it sucks, it’s only for 2 weeks.

I’d like to put it off, but my red alarms are flashing. Way back in stay puft marshmallow days, I enacted a disaster scenario and recovery plan in my head. Maintenance would end at any time when I was regularly weighing in over whatever my “oh shit” weight happened to be (and right now, that’s 155). I would begin immediately tracking my food, weighing every day, and reducing my calories. Once I returned to comfortably under that, I would resume happy fun times.

So, the plan. I am going to go back to tracking. Today. I just have to. I know there is a point in my life where I will not track, but this is not now. Spark says I can still burn 3000 calories per week and eat 1200-1550 calories per day, so that is what I will do. Up until the race Saturday I’m going to err on the side of 1550, but as of Sunday, I’m attempting to stay as close to 1200 as possible. I know there are days when I’ll be pushing it to stay under 1550 even, but if I can balance those out with some 1200 days, I can do it.

Exercise – I’m going to be a little more intuitive here. Spark says I should be able to keep burning my 400+ per day and be ok. I’m also pretty sure I could drop down to minimal exericse (for me, that looks like 3 cardio sessions per week of about 30-45 mins, 2 strength sessions of about 30-35 mins, and some yoga) and still lose. I almost think that I might have more success with a little less cardio. I need to accept that anything beyond moderate exercise is MY indulgence and not really going to make me lose weight. So I’ll make a plan, and if I’m just dead tired, I’ll modify it.

The problem behind it is – I feel fluffy. I do. It’s taken the full 5 lb gain to really feel it but I do today. And I don’t want to feel fluffy on my wedding day. Even if no one else in the world notices that I lost 4 lbs between now and then, I will know. I also will have 3 days in Vegas before I get married – I’m going to try to be as good as possible, but I’m not going to lie – there is going to be some booze and food and I’m not going to deny myself completely. So, for the next two weeks, fat cells, you’re on notice. And if I come off as a irrational raving bitch/lunatic/whiny person in my future posts, you’ve got an inkling why. I don’t like when my food gets taken away.

Hair and Makeup, Day #2

I didn’t have much time, so I did a quick trial. I liked how I was wearing my hair that day so I just did some modifications to it – however, it looked pretty crazy when I took it down. I figure I’ll get the main shape of what I like, and then perhaps

Talk about feeling fluffy...

work some braids into it if I decide to get all fancy-like. Working with it the next day after washing was WAY easier (as we all suspected) but it didn’t magically un-friz like I was secretly hoping.

I’m going to give it one more try with some product after the next time I wash it, but I’m thinking the best idea might be, as Charlotte said in the comments, to dry it straight and then use a curling iron to do the curls. Seems like a shame because I do have natural waves/curls, but they may just be too damn frizzy to work for what I want. I think I’ve decided on little flowers all over vs one big flower, but we’ll see what I end up with.

As for makeup, I went ahead and left the foundation off, which I actually didn’t mind. I don’t think I’m going to skip it all together, but it did reinforce the fact that I probably don’t need face cake, and as Divinari suggested, I should probably go for something very light, like bare minerals.

For shits and giggles, I decided to go with pinks and figured it would be good and humorous. Oddly enough, it didn’t look that bad at all. I actually kinda liked it. I’ve never used brown eyeliner and think now it might work well for a daytime look. I figured the pinks would turn me into barbie but they don’t. It’s weird, but I don’t hate it. I think I need the darker lipstick to balance out my brows (thanks Div for pointing that out, I always wondered why I trended towards darker stuff, its because of my prominent brows), but I didn’t mind either look. I need to study how to do blush better – I think it just didn’t work quite right.

Pictorial below – first, closeup of the makeups. First left, pink and not hating it, then right, the brighter lipstick and blush.

Next, hair pictures from each angle.

Sorta out of order but I don’t feel like futzing with pictures more. You get the idea. Yeah, it’s pretty messy but I think at least I like a) the basic hairstyle and b) the little flowers. So a win there. I am resisting the urge to give myself layers in front of my face because DAMN I think that would make it look super nice with that do. Please talk me out of modifying my hair 2 weeks before I hop the plane…

Anyhoo, I think I’ll give one more go tonight with what I have, and then it’s time to go shopping for hair product and foundation stuff because I’m reaching the limit of what I can do with what I have.

As always, advice/scoldings/comment welcomed and most appreciated.

Tags: fashion, rant, unfluffy bride, Weight Loss