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<\/a><\/p>\nThis past weekend, we had a “people-cation”.\u00a0 Since Sunday was Easter we spent some time with my fam, but on Friday and Saturday we had no plans besides training (though everyone and their mother TRIED to get us out).\u00a0 We pretty much slept.\u00a0 Sometimes 10+ hours per night, and a nap or two in there.\u00a0 Hi there, exhaustion.\u00a0 Nice to see you again (not really).\u00a0 I feel more rested, but plunging directly back into stress at work doesn’t make me feel much better.\u00a0 I still feel cranky, stabby, and about one step away from crawling under my desk and rocking back and forth when someone comes into my office with bad news.<\/p>\n
Sadly, I still feel like I need about 4 more of these types of weekends before I’m recovered.\u00a0 I have been wavering back and forth whether I need the day off after Texasman, and I just decided today that YEAH, yeah I do.\u00a0 There is no way I could hang today that exhausted, and I don’t want to inflict that on my coworkers.<\/p>\n
I’m hoping that things settle a little bit later in the week, but it’s been up to 11 since I returned from vacation in March, and I’ll be lucky if it goes back below 7-8 for quite a while.<\/p>\n
So, I haven’t tracked my food for the last 5 days.\u00a0 I may or may not start tracking again until after the race.\u00a0 I kind of don’t give a fuck right now.<\/p>\n
I haven’t made April goals or updated about my March ones.\u00a0 I probably didn’t get very far because I don’t remember what they were.\u00a0 I kind of don’t give a fuck about them.<\/p>\n
I was going to give up beer for a month in lieu of smaller amounts of liqueur or wine (I’m not going THAT far) to try to reduce calories a bit.\u00a0 Then my favorite seasonal beer came out.\u00a0 The beer-bargo might have to wait until after season ends because there’s nothing like a cold beer after 4 hours of training at the lake or a hard race and I kind of don’t give a fuck.<\/p>\n There are plenty of things I should probably be doing around the house.\u00a0 I kind of don’t give a fuck because I’m full up.<\/p>\n I have room for a few things in my life right now:<\/p>\n 1. Work.\u00a0 And it’s even encroaching on the amount of mindshare it should have.\u00a0 I keep having dreams about being at my co-workers in weird situations, like summer camp.\u00a0 But, it pays the bills, so I can’t be mad at it.<\/p>\n 2. Training.\u00a0 I’ve been maintaining a decent 8-10 hours per week, which includes 20-25 miles of running, and a decent amount of biking and swimming, and weights sometimes.\u00a0 Oddly enough this consistency has netted some pretty solid race results and I feel pretty prepared to rock my first A race of the year, Texasman x-50.<\/p>\n 3. Sleep and rest.\u00a0 I can’t sacrifice this.\u00a0 Doing that makes me even more cranky.<\/p>\n 4. Small amounts of socialization and fun.\u00a0 I did finally finish what I needed to run my story (and have probably said NEVER AGAIN because it took WAYYYY too much effort, or maybe just keeping it simple instead of trying to make the BESTEST STORY EVER).\u00a0 I plan to hang out with friends for a bit next weekend instead of being a shut in.\u00a0 But it has to be small, measured doses that doesn’t interfere with numbers 1, 2, or 3.<\/p>\n 5. Eat good food.\u00a0 Try to eat not so much bad food.\u00a0 Even if I have to succumb to the takeout monster because there is like less than zero time to cook, try to stay away from the trifecta of evil – fried, simple carbs, and sweets, and pick places that I know I can get some good, solid fuel.\u00a0 I also have to remember it doesn’t have to be gourmet.\u00a0 Above, I opened up some beans, and added some salsa, guac, olives, onions, cilantro, cheese, lettuce, and put it in whole wheat tortillas.\u00a0 Perfect meal to fuel a 90 min bike ride later, and took me five minutes.<\/p>\n That’s it.\u00a0 No feeling shitty because I didn’t organize my vanity, no feeling guilty because there’s something awesome out there I’m not doing, no feeling like a jerk because I ate food I didn’t cook 5 times last week.\u00a0 I can’t even deal with that right now, I can’t even.\u00a0 I am in survival mode to get through the next two weeks without sobbing under my desk, murdering people, and getting through all this with my sanity in tact.\u00a0 I let go of all these things, all these extraneous things, which means you’ll probably not see much here for a week or two unless I get inspired to ramble.<\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n