You know that scene in Moulin Rouge where Satine is on top of the elephant?\u00a0 The one where she’s singing “One day I’ll fly away, leave all this to yesterday.\u00a0 Why live life from dream to dream and dread the day when dreaming ends…”?\u00a0 Yeah, I get like that sometimes.\u00a0 I got it real bad yesterday.<\/p>\n
Now, I love my life.\u00a0 I have a wonderful, fantastic Zliten, and a gal could not ask for a better partner in crime.\u00a0 He supports me on my silly endeavours of half-marathoning, randomly picking numbers for shirts for me, and has even done a damn large share of the wedding planning when it got too much for me.\u00a0\u00a0 This one, he is a keeper, and he is coming with when I fly away anywhere, I wouldn’t have it any other way.\u00a0 I am thankful daily that I have a great group of friends, ![\"\"](\"http:\/\/imagecache5.art.com\/p\/LRG\/7\/784\/RVHI000Z\/moulin-rouge.jpg\")
a big, comfortable house to play in, a nice new gas efficient car with all the bells and whistles, and I can still afford the payments on all this with my stable job in an industry I love.\u00a0 Of course, I want it all and I want it now, but I’m feeling very good lately with what I have in comparison to what I don’t have.<\/p>\n
However, sometimes I get the nomadic feeling and want to just get up and go.\u00a0 Go somewhere, anywhere, anywhere but here.\u00a0 I feel trapped in my life and want to run away.\u00a0 The pressure of having to keep the job so I can afford the house and the car becomes stifling.\u00a0 Having to deal with the day to day minutiae becomes tedious because I want to be off backpacking in Europe or roadtripping around the US.\u00a0 I want to pack up a small amount of my shit and get in my car and go somewhere away.\u00a0 I hate that I don’t have the possibility right now to just take off and go.<\/p>\n
It’s not as if it would do me much good anyway.\u00a0 Generally, I have about a 4-7 day span that I actually enjoy being away from home.\u00a0 The last Vegas trip was about a day too short, but the last 8 day cruise was just a little too long.\u00a0 By the time a week passes, I miss my bed, my couch, my patio, my life, and am ready to go home.\u00a0 I am not a nomad at heart.\u00a0 I like having a home base where all my crap is.\u00a0 Sometimes I just forget that though and want to just do something… spontaneous.\u00a0 Sometimes I forget that I like to micromanage everything in my life and have the urge to be the kind of person that could hop the first plane out of the airport, no matter where it was going.<\/a><\/p>\n I tend to psychoanalyze myself when I do or think something I don’t understand and realized that many factors weighed into this –<\/p>\n 1.\u00a0 I got some news at work that sort of shifted my job back from the cool, fun thing I was doing to more of a normal role.\u00a0 I pouted for a while because I felt like my toys were getting taken away but I realized this is an opportunity.\u00a0 I am being asked, for the first time in 4 years of holding the title of Associate Producer, to actually be an Associate Producer.\u00a0 I’ve always lacked a little bit of confidence because I never felt I knew how to do a typical AP’s job.\u00a0 Now, I get a chance to learn and conquer.<\/p>\n 2.\u00a0 My Zliten was really down yesterday, and the feeling kinda seeped over to me, instead of me being able to cheer him up.\u00a0 It usually works the other way but not yesterday.<\/p>\n 3.\u00a0 It’s too hot to go outside, which is pissing me off royally.\u00a0 Now that I’m not training\/working\/eating\/sleeping\/resting every moment of the weekdays, I have time to do fun stuff!\u00a0 I think, “OMG after work let’s go ride our bikes 4.\u00a0 The biggie – I had just taken a week off running.\u00a0 I was so focused on the half training that I didn’t have the desire to run away.\u00a0 Running just made me feel so free and so accomplished at the same time.\u00a0 Nothing else fazed me because I was working on something huge.\u00a0 I got to go out 4 times a week and get the wind in my hair and it was just me and my thoughts.\u00a0 I guess it was also an awesome feeling knowing that I could pretty much by the end of my training run one way anywhere I wanted to go.\u00a0 I mean, maybe not all the way to the suburbs or south Austin, but the radius of where my feet could carry me was huge.\u00a0 Most importantly – the running was so tiring physically it shut my brain off too.<\/p>\n Instead of hitting the road or the airport, we made big huge gigantic salads which were so pretty they needed pictures (expect a recipe post soon) and declared night to be different night.\u00a0 We banned internet dorking and TV watching, because that’s what we do every night at home.\u00a0 Instead, we downloaded some game demos, and ended up purchasing Sam and Max<\/a> on the Xbox360, which is hilarious and fun, and we played together until my eyes got heavy.\u00a0 Mood was definitely improved by the end of the day, and since I got my run on this morning and got my attitude in check about work, I’ve been doing just fine.<\/p>\n I’m still trying to figure out at least a mini-vacay to take in between now and October, but I don’t think I’ll be hopping the first plane out.\u00a0 Or if I do, I’ll packed for every occasion and I’ll have submitted my time off at least 2 weeks ahead of time, because that’s just how I roll.<\/p>\n![\"\"](\"http:\/\/www.posters-n-prints.com\/zoom\/moulin-rouge-movie-poster.jpg\")
downtown and hit the mini golf place and have dinner and…oh crap it’s 105 fucking degrees outside (literally), let’s not”.\u00a0 We just couldn’t figure out an adventure to have in town that didn’t cost a lot of money, involve drinking, or involved being outside.\u00a0 No disc golf, roller skating wasn’t open, ice skating wasn’t open, movie sounded meh, didn’t want to hit up a bar, and we just couldn’t think of anything else.\u00a0 If it was just 10 degrees cooler we could have been out on a bike adventure and it would have been awesome, and I could have looked forward to it all day.<\/p>\n