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Imagine your dream.\u00a0 No, not the delicious turkey sandwich you’re dreaming of for lunch, but something that has been a long term, professional and\/or personal dream.\u00a0 Maybe you just got handed a publishing contract for your new book.\u00a0 Maybe you finally qualified for the Boston Marathon.\u00a0 Maybe you found the perfect love of your life.\u00a0 What’s the last thing you’d expect your reaction would be?\u00a0 That’s right, running away and screaming.<\/p>\n
So why is that my first instinct everytime I get the opportunity for something cool?<\/p>\n
On my super exciting news I won’t be able to talk about for years and years, I was rightfully super excited the first day after I found out, and then after – I realized I felt lost and very self-doubting.\u00a0 Zliten was pretty incredulous how blah I was being about it.\u00a0 I spent a while berating myself about it.\u00a0 When did I become the kind of person that was more comfortable being mediocre?\u00a0 When did I become the kind of person that is afraid of success?\u00a0 At what point in my life did I stop wanting to reach for the stars?\u00a0 Then there was the frustration at how long it was taking me to think things through.\u00a0 When did I become so rusty?\u00a0 Am I just too old to be a rockstar?\u00a0 Is this not really what I want anymore?<\/p>\n
All of a sudden, it dawned on me.\u00a0 It’s just like when I hit the gym after a looooong hiatus 2 years ago.\u00a0 When I got back on the eliptical for the first time, it was FRUSTRATING as hell that something that once came so easy to me was now like trudging through mud.\u00a0 Running my first mile took almost a year and I just about collapsed dead after.\u00a0 Doing a pushup from my toes took over a year and I certainly wasn’t just busting out 3 sets of 25 like I am now.\u00a0 All things I’ve done before.\u00a0 All things I am better at now than I was before ever in my life.\u00a0 I was just out of practice and it took time.<\/p>\n
One I realized this, I felt much, much better and was able to make some progress.\u00a0 I’m still feeling very slow but it’s ok.\u00a0 It’s not a switch I can flip, and I don’t think my bosses expect that.\u00a0 I have some time to get my head where it needs to be.\u00a0 Just as I don’t expect perfection (though I strive for it) in my eating and exercising habits, I don’t need to hold myself to an unreasonable standard in other aspects of life.<\/p>\n
Now, I’m excited and optimistic, as I should be.\u00a0 Still have a little bit of the butterflies but those will clear away once things get settled.\u00a0 And that’s an awesome way to go into a three day weekend.\u00a0 What other areas of your life can YOU apply the lessons you’ve learned in forging your way into a healthy lifestyle?\u00a0 Anyone got super awesome plans for the long weekend?<\/p>\n