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<\/p>\nSo my big thing is no guilt.\u00a0 No regrets.\u00a0 But it’s hard not to regret and rib yourself a bit if you treated yourself so poorly over the weekend that you are feeling physically ill about it.\u00a0 And by “you”, I mean me.\u00a0 Consider yourselves my proverbial priests, while I give you a full confessional.\u00a0 I’ll give you a play by play of the carnage.<\/p>\n
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My first mistake was going out Friday night.\u00a0 I knew I had a party lined up the next night, yet I couldn’t wait.\u00a0 I didn’t go too crazy and I ate well (I was a good girl and ordered chipotle tacos with meat, lettuce, salsa, and that’s it, and that was the worst thing food-wise I had all day), but there was definitely whiskey involved.\u00a0 And I was up until almost 5am.\u00a0 And I skipped the DDR part of my workout.\u00a0 Mostly because I was sore and wanted to die, but partly because I didn’t have time – friends were already over and food was sitting on the counter after Jillian kicked my butt.<\/p>\n
My second mistake was sleeping in Saturday, lazing around, and then having to run all over town getting things for my costume.\u00a0 I missed my sixth day of Shred.\u00a0 Six days is more than I usually do, but considering 2 of those days were only 20 min shred workouts, I still owed myself a workout.\u00a0 And I didn’t do it.<\/p>\n
My third mistake was following my advice for parties – I had a very small and what I thought was filling snack before I headed out, but I guess a gardenburger wasn’t enough.\u00a0 I was so seriously hungry I downed an OBSCENE amount of junk food there because I was STARVING.\u00a0 On top of that, I could only obtain a one liter of diet soda and had to move on after that to sugared punch and soda.\u00a0 Ugh.<\/p>\n
My fourth mistake was lunch on Sunday.\u00a0 It wasn’t that it was so unhealthy – it was just so BAD.\u00a0 We went to try out what we thought was a new soup and salad bar, but it ended up being more of a straight buffet, and probably the worst one in town we’ve had thus far.\u00a0 Everything was fatty and greasy and bleh (except that salad, that was alright- but the topping bar was pretty small).<\/p>\n
My fifth mistake?\u00a0 Not making up my skipped workout on Sunday.\u00a0 I had convinced myself somehow that I should rest today so I didn’t tire myself out, but I think it was more about the hangover.\u00a0 I usually punish myself by working through hangovers but not so much yesterday.<\/p>\n
My sixth and final nail in the coffin was dinner.\u00a0 Calorie-wise, I was a freaking saint.\u00a0 We got chinese takeout and I had wonton soup, veggie delight, and one bite of orange chicken.\u00a0 And about half a cup of rice.\u00a0 The problem is – I ended up with a gigantic portion of the wonton soup + broth and it was especially salty, so I am Bloaty McBalloonperson today.<\/p>\n
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I will say some good things about this weekend though:<\/p>\n
1.\u00a0 I didn’t partake of the late night fast food runs either night.\u00a0 I had a few fries off Zliten’s plate Friday but that’s it.<\/p>\n
2.\u00a0 I did dance my ass of for a while at the party Saturday.\u00a0 Plus I was shopping for 3 hours – shopping is cardio, right?<\/p>\n
3.\u00a0 I made good food choices with what I had to work with Sunday.\u00a0 I went for non fried stuff (minus one small taste of fried fish which was honestly the best thing on the buffet :P) and loaded up on veggies and non-sauce covered protein.\u00a0 Chinese, I ate probably just about the lowest calorie foods on the menu and was actually pretty satisfied with what I got instead of feeling diet-punished.<\/p>\n
However, the truth is today the scale is saying unthinkable things that I am going to throw out as a mulligan.\u00a0 I’ll give myself a day or 2 being healthy to detox and I should be back in business.\u00a0 The problem: I have just about the same weekend to face next weekend.\u00a0 I have high hopes going into each weekend and then it all falls apart.\u00a0 It’s one hundred percent my fault.\u00a0 While I’d love to get persnickety about people around me not being the best influences and yadda yadda yadda, I am the one making the choices.\u00a0 I am the one who controls my destiny.<\/p>\n
I am the one who had to have her heart jump out of her chest practically today because of what she saw on the scale.\u00a0 Yeah, it was that ridiculous.\u00a0 Who gains seven lbs in 2 days?\u00a0 That would be me, people.\u00a0 I am really going to have to get it together if I want to accomplish project: the last effing 20 lbs.<\/p>\n
But really, all I can do is analyze, figure out how to be better next time, and move on.\u00a0 So that I will.\u00a0 This week, I will stop letting those close to me be enablers.\u00a0 If I choose to go out drinking and find myself hungry because of it, fuck it.\u00a0 Being hungry is not the worst thing in the world.\u00a0 If I have the strength to run a half marathon, and the capability to come up with a training plan – I can figure this out.\u00a0 I’m not a dumb bunny, but I sure played one this weekend.<\/p>\n
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So, I guess here is last week by the numbers:<\/strong><\/p>\n Monday: under 1400<\/span> 1500 calories, Shred Lvl 1, 30 mins DDR <\/span>5k run (had an itch to run, so I ran instead) Tuesday: under 1400<\/span> 1500 calories, Shred Lvl 1, 5k run<\/span> 30 mins DDR (switched from Monday, and at lower intensity than normal because – um, sore!)<\/p>\n Wednesday: under 1400<\/span> 1500 calories, Shred Level 1, 30 mins DDR <\/span>yoga (was about to die from soreness so I yoga’d out)<\/p>\n Thursday: under 1400<\/span> 1500 calories, Shred Level 1, 5 mile run<\/span> 5k run (just didn’t have a 5 miler in me)<\/p>\n Friday: under 1500<\/span> 1700 calories, Shred Level 1<\/p>\n Saturday: healthy eating until the Halloween party, Shred Level 1<\/span><\/p>\n Sunday: under 1500<\/span> calories (who knows), rest<\/p>\n So this week is:<\/strong><\/p>\n Monday: under 1400 calories, Shred Lvl 1, 30 mins DDR<\/p>\n Tuesday: under 1400 calories, Shred Lvl 2, 5 mile run<\/p>\n Wednesday: under 1400 calories, Shred Level 2, yoga<\/p>\n Thursday: under 1400 calories, Shred Level 2, 5k run<\/p>\n Friday: under 1500 calories, Shred Level 2, 30 mins DDR<\/p>\n Saturday: under 2000 calories, Shred Level 2, yoga<\/p>\n Sunday: under 1500 calories, rest<\/p>\n So yes, pretty much a do-over of last week, and moving up to level 2 of the Shred.\u00a0 Since this post is already looking to be like a novel, I’ll talk more about the shred and other random stuff tomorrow.<\/p>\n How was your weekend?\u00a0 Anyone else want to pull up a chair to the confessional?\u00a0 If you had a saintly weekend, wanna give me some tips? \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
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