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I’ll go into it more Monday, but this week sorta fell apart on me.\u00a0 However, it’s Friday, I’m feeling good, I’m totally psyched to hit the gym for a super killer treadmill workout tonight, and most importantly, I’m feeling totally uninjured, rested, and healthy.<\/p>\n
It just hit me yesterday thinking about how I’ve changed over this whole getting healthy thing in general by reflecting on the week.\u00a0\u00a0 Even in the last year.\u00a0 When I get frustrated that I haven’t lost much weight, I have to remember that I been maintaining a huge loss.\u00a0 I have a completely different headspace than I used to.\u00a0 Here are things I did without really noticing…<\/p>\n
Some examples:<\/p>\n
Peanut Butter Pie in the breakroom yesterday.<\/strong><\/p>\n 4 years ago: “Pie, fuck yeah!\u00a0 Can I have 2?”\u00a0 Then later, scolding myself for being so weak.<\/p>\n 2 years ago: “No thanks.”\u00a0 Then being freaking obsessed over peanut butter pie for the next week.<\/p>\n this week: “Oh yum!”\u00a0 Taking a slice, eating about half, and throwing the rest of it away because it was just too much for me.<\/p>\n Mindlessly pigging out on what’s in the house because my tummy is ravenous.<\/strong><\/p>\n 4 years ago: frozen pizza, chips and dip, cookies, ice cream (yes, all in ONE night).\u00a0 Feel depressed and crappy physically and mentally after the sugar and fat buzz wears off.<\/p>\n 2 years ago: 100 calorie packs, sugar free pudding, low fat cheese and reduced fat crackers (though certainly not all at once!).\u00a0 Feel still slightly unsatisfied, but mentally I convince myself I have had enough and need to stop to stay in my calorie range.<\/p>\n this week: raw veggies, turkey pepperoni, jerky, veggie pasta salad, fruit, pistachios, small amounts of full fat cheese (over the course of a few days).\u00a0 Feel satiated, feel a little guilty, then think about what I actually ate, and laugh.<\/p>\n Not working out for a week due to injury\/exhaustion\/other crap:<\/strong><\/p>\n 4 years ago: “Duh, I don’t have time with work.”<\/p>\n 2 years ago: “OMG OMG I’m going to get fat again this is horrible my life is ruined.”<\/p>\n this week: “Eh, that’s the way it goes.\u00a0 So looking forward to hitting the ‘mill tonight now that I feel good!”<\/p>\n Seeing a ridiculously unflattering picture of myself:<\/strong><\/p>\n 4 years ago: “Damnit, why am I so fat…”\u00a0 No way is anyone seeing this.<\/p>\n 2 years ago: “Ugh, and THIS is why I am so not done losing weight.”\u00a0 No way is anyone seeing this.<\/p>\n