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Let’s indulge my inner demons and take a look at what would happen, if history is a guide, at the events that would play out.<\/p>\nSo my biggest fear in the last 2 years is that I was going have the anti-epiphany one day that I was sick of this exercise-y healthy new lifestyle stuff and just decide to say fuck it and go back to the way I was.\u00a0 It’s always a fear that comes back when I get sick\/injured\/unable to workout for a while.\u00a0 Let’s indulge my inner demons and take a look at what would happen, if history is a guide, at the events that would play out.<\/p>\n
Day 0:<\/strong> I have dialogues with myself or someone else and come to the realization that what I’m doing isn’t making me happy and isn’t worth it, and I’m not gonna do it anymore.\u00a0 Usually, under some sort of mental duress, instability, or altered state of mind.<\/p>\n Day 1:<\/strong> I’d probably go make myself sick on whatever I was craving last.\u00a0 If it were today, I would go eat as many pieces of Conan’s Deep Dish Savage as I felt like.\u00a0 Probably with some good beer.\u00a0 And probably some sort of hand scooped milkshake.<\/p>\n Day 2:<\/strong> I’d wake up feeling AWFUL.\u00a0 It would keep me in check for a while.<\/p>\n Week 1:<\/strong> I’d probably still workout – 17 months of habit doesn’t disappear overnight.\u00a0 I’d probably stick to mostly DDR and some runs and walks outside.\u00a0 I’d still probably try to not eat *too* badly, but definitely give up counting calories and weighing myself every day.<\/p>\n Month 1:<\/strong> I’d start boasting that I don’t have to do all this crap I used to do, I can stay slim without any effort, just doing whatever I feel like.\u00a0 Since I’ve decided to give up the scale, my clothes are probably still fitting me ok so I’m happy.\u00a0 I probably work out 3 times a week when I remember.\u00a0 I’m thinking I can do whatever I want, so I push my boundaries and maybe drink some real, sugared juice or just go ahead and order the fettuccine alfredo because I want it, but only occasionally.<\/p>\n Month 6:<\/strong> I’m probably clinging to the last 2-3 pairs of “skinny” pants I have that fit or thanking the dear fluffy lord it’s summer and I can get away with skirts.\u00a0 I don’t feel right, I know something’s wrong and I need to get back to eating better and exercising, but I’ll do it next week, when things are gonna be better.\u00a0 It’s just so much easier to not worry about how many calories are in things, ya know.\u00a0 And exercising just takes so much EFFORT.\u00a0 I just don’t know how I used to do that so much.\u00a0 I remember it being such good stress relief but…I dunno, I just can’t get back into it.\u00a0 I’m gonna start Monday, really I am.<\/p>\n Month 12:<\/strong> I’ve visibly gained weight.\u00a0 Those skinny jeans are in a box and I’ve had to borrow the old ones I got rid of back from my mom (or if my pride won out, I’ll have bought new ones as to not admit that I’ve gained).\u00a0 I think about when I used to have such passion for being healthy, had such momentum, and wish I could get it back again.\u00a0 Unfortunately, I’m pondering this over french fries sitting on my butt.\u00a0 Running was so great, but now I can barely fathom doing it.<\/p>\n Year 2: <\/strong> I’ll make a New Years Resolution to get back into running and lose that weight, and it worked for a while.\u00a0 I lost about half of it, but then I got lazy and gained that plus some back by t Year 5: <\/strong> I’ve been through Year 2’s cycle at least 3 more times, before giving up completly, blaming my 30s, work, life, or anything else around me that wasn’t giving me my thinness back.\u00a0 I’m too old to be that thin, I think.\u00a0 That’s for younguns in their 20s.\u00a0 At least I’m not in plus sizes (yet).<\/p>\n I think I’m going to stop there because that’s depressing enough.\u00a0 While I would LIKE to think I’ve learned enough in these 2 years to not go back to that, I do have 14 years of previous habits to break.\u00a0 Everything in that description has gone through my head or has been something I experienced since I quit gymnastics and went from super fly fit to super squishy.\u00a0 I just hope that I can not regress to that ever again…<\/p>\n No, I know that I can do it.\u00a0 I didn’t spend 25 months at this to regress that far.\u00a0 I just can’t go back to that, it’s not a fun place to be.\u00a0 Not that I was considering, but I always have to play the “what if” game with myself.\u00a0 It usually keeps me on the straight and narrow.\u00a0 Just like I wouldn’t ruin all the hard work I’ve put into building my career by upping and walking out and burning bridges, I wouldn’t ruin all the hard work I’ve put into my body by just giving up on it.\u00a0 The difference is – once you break a tie, it’s usually forever.\u00a0 If you decide you regret what you’re doing to your body, you can, at that very moment, start changing for the better.<\/p>\n Anyone have a story on giving up on anything to share?\u00a0 Was it a bad thing or a good thing?\u00a0 Ever walk out of a job without notice to prove a point?\u00a0 I’d love to hear about it.<\/p>\n![\"\"](\"http:\/\/ferenc.biz\/pictures\/moses-funny-church-sign-photo.jpg\")
Month 2-3:<\/strong> My pants probably start getting a little tight, which depresses me but I avoid thinking about it by switching to another pair.\u00a0 See, these fit me when I was skinny too, I must just be having a bad day, right?\u00a0 The little pooch I’ve developed just means I stay away from the tighter shirts, I have plenty that are still flattering.\u00a0 The scale is out of the bathroom – out of sight, out of mind.\u00a0 I might still be working out sporadically, but it’s getting harder to get the same results I was before.\u00a0 This also probably frustrates and depresses me, so to avoid it, I slowly stop doing it.<\/p>\n![\"\"](\"http:\/\/www.funnycatpix.com\/_pics\/giveup.jpg\")
he end of the year.\u00a0 I got into the gym and did some workouts, but could never get back to the same intensity I used to.<\/p>\n