So, I’m still in a funk a bit, but I’m taking steps to make peace with that.
1. There are a few things in my life that are a little out of control right now that just have to stay out of control for the time being, and I just realize that as a control freak, this will drive me a little nuts, and that’s ok. There is an end. There is a resolution. I just need patience.
2. There are a few things in my life that have not been put on a schedule and harnessed and planned like I like to do. I can make this change. For example, I need to start doing our monthly budget again, I’ve started it and just waiting for the month to end to get some data to work with. Before – with just my salary and unemployment it was just too depressing. Now, with Zliten only UNDERemployed it’s moderately less depressing! Yes, I like my control freakiness with a side of avoidant behavior. This will help me figure out things like whether it is possible to do something cool for my birthday AND redo the kitchen windows this year. I would like to thank our previous owners for making ALL the windows in the house CUSTOM SIZES. *shakes fist (full of money)*
3. This is typical end-of-winter blues for me. I am never in a particularly great and happy state around now. Once we get past the possibility of hard freezes and icky weather (like the rest of this week and weekend), I should be a much happier camper.
4. It’s also the end of half marathon training. I am at the point where I just want to run the race and do something new and different. Less than last time where I was going nutzo about now, but there is definitely the defiant little Quix-in-my-head going “I WANNA RUN WHEN I WANNA RUN, WAH.” I can only take the same rigid schedule for so long before I ‘splode, even if it’s self imposed. And a different rigid schedule? Like butter to me. I love. I just need different and freaky every so often.
I think a majority of the things kinda bugging me will resolve themselves mid-February. And that’s not too far away. And if not, I can busy myself making mountains of spreadsheets and unbooked vacation itineraries and dreaming of winning the lotto. Hey, it could happen.
So I’m sure you’re sick of hearing ME whine, so let me direct you to other cool bloggers saying things besides wah wah boo hoo is me and my pretty little slightly imperfect life.
Get Miz on Ellen! Mizfit, you have some huevos, you are crazy, and I love it.
Endurance Isn’t Only Physical is giving away a Nathan’s Hydration Belt!
Fit to the Finish – I totally agree with her opinion on deprivation.
My Life On A Diet – the Aha moment of realizing you’re one of those Thin people.
Tiny Glow – what a difference 30 lbs makes! Linking to this post specifically to a) show off her awesome progress and b) emphasize the IMPORTANCE of purchasing some clothes that fit every once in a while – don’t wait until your goal weight!!!
The Great Fitness Experiment – Charlotte examines Time Sickness (and ohhh boy, I have the sickness fo sho). Extra credit – an amazing ab workout I am linking here for selfish reasons, so that I can remember it and partake of it once I finish this crazy half training.
Diet Girl is giving away a bunch of stuff in her sell out extravaganza! Check it out.
It’s Feed Me I’m Cranky ‘s blog birthday and she’s giving away a whole foods gift certificate! No one else enter because I’d like to win, please. 🙂
Go check out a few good peoples’ blogs and perhaps tomorrow I will have something besides blah de wah de splat. What do you do to get yourself out of a funk? What’s making you happy lately?