Adjusted Reality

Yelp Goes Gaga:

Before drinking, waiting for the bus.

Ready for my closeup!

After all you can drink 3 Olives vodka for 2 hours:

Rooftop view…

There were fabulous costumes, drag queens, witty discourse and banter with folks we haven’t seen in a while.  I was hoping we could get dancy but there was just none of that going on.  Oh well.  I WILL drag Zliten out one of these days and have a good dancy night.  It’s been a while.  I’m not disappointed, I mean, I rarely have an excuse to wear a tiara and boa out of the house and that counts for a lot.  I <3 Yelp for giving me a reason to dress up silly at least once every few months and take over a bar.  On them.  Can’t complain!

The next ones are a “faire” themed event at a gourmet hot dog bar/restaurant, and a red white and blue themed party at a bourbon bar.  Totally looking forward to the summer of Yelp fun.

Training plan for Pflugerville Triathlon:

I haven’t had a cohesive training plan for a while and I wanted to lay one out for the next month.   With work and my injury I’ve been holding back a bit, but by next week, I should be all rested and things should be back on track to go at it 100%.

Translations –

Pflake bricks – a group of the folks that put on the duloop also do a swim/run brick group training sesh every other Monday and, oh, it happens to be at the lake where the tri is at.  We’re going to try to hit both instances before the tri.

Veloway – a free bike and rollerblade only 3 mile loop w/no traffic.  All the bennies of biking outside, none of the hassles of dealing with traffic.

Shoal creek lap = 10 miles

I’m going to be getting in 2 bike/run bricks.  While I used to do them every week last year, I feel like I *know* now mentally how it feels to transition from bike to run and that all it takes is the mental fortitude to run through it until it gets better.  I plan to do both outside to maximize the awesome.

It seems as if 7 cardio segments is all I can get in without a) upping the days to 6 and b) ditching weights

May 23 – 29
M Pflake brick – 1 mile swim, 20 mile bike
T 5k tempo, weights
W 30 min hard ride, 30 min easy swim
Th off
F 4 miles hills, weights
S veloway long ride
Su off

May 30 – June 5
M 10k run outside, crunchtime (or weights)
T shoal creek lap, 30 min swim easy
W 4 mile outside run, weights
Th 30 mins ride easy, 30 mins swim hard
F off
S shoal creek lap, 5k run (brick)
Su off

June 6 – 12
M Pflake brick – 1 mile swim, 20 mile ride
T 5k tempo, weights
W 30 mins ride hard, 30 mins swim easy
Th off
F 4 miles hill run, weights
S 60 min swim
Su off

June 13 – 19
M 6 mile ride, 2 mile run (outside if possible, easy with pickups) (brick)
T 30 min easy swim
W off
Th 40 mins bike w/pickups
F 2 mile run (outside if possible)
S  off
Su race!

And, that’s about that.  There’s another event going on right now (Game Dev Beer Night), but I’m at home catching up on Glee because a) I already did the whole “go-crazy-on-a-weekday” thing once this week b) I have a race in two days that I really would like to rock and c) I am old.

Sometimes it’s a shame that I have a conscience and a training schedule.  But it’s really probably a good thing, because there is generally something going on most days of the week and I am not getting any younger – weekday partying has to be kept within reason or I just can’t function.

Life has a way of steering you in the right direction sometimes, yah?

Soul Coughing

What a difference a few days make.  By Friday, my head was in a huge fog.  Work wasn’t going too well, to the point which necessitated weekend work for a lot of the team.  I was too tired – nay – physically and mentally exhausted to deal with low salt cooking or make proper lunches (not to mention working too many hours), so while I’m pretty sure I didn’t blow my calorie load beyond a reasonable level, I didn’t eat quality food, and being that it was many foods not home cooked in a row, it was definitely not low sodium.  Also, my back was showing progress, but it still *hurt*.  I was still definitely INJURED.

Friday night I got off at a decent-ish hour, and the plan was for me to go swim some laps, cook a healthy dinner, and rest up and go to sleep early.  I was in such a mood, and was grumbling about it.  And then, it happened.  We found a dead mouse in the kitchen under a towel that had been there for obviously a few days (what, not everyone throws their used kitchen towels on the floor so they can sop up water and then leaves them?) that had MAGGOTS crawling in and out of it.  Zliten gets MAJOR hubby points for picking it up, but that was the tipping point.

I was so disgusted and grumpy I said fuck the gym, poured my ass a drink (rum, selzer, key lime juice, and a bit of honey – still doing good on no artificial sweeteners), and decided I was going to go outside, bring my laptop, sit on my patio, and enjoy the game I had been toiling over all week.  And thus I did until 2am.  And ate a tiny, salt laden, microwave meal for my dinner around 11pm.

Best decision ever.

Sure I had a bit of a hangover the next day.  Sure I missed an opportunity to burn some calories.  However, I had a blast, and went into the next day with a much better and energized attitude.  I finished up work around 4:30, had a whole day and a half of a brain break, and I am a new woman this week.

The scale didn’t even suffer.  I ate dinner after 10pm on Sunday, and weighed in at 171 the next morning.  With all the salt and the crap over the end of the week/weekend, I was not at all unhappy with it.  What’s better is that I am at 168.6 today.  And it’s TOM.  This is major progress folks!

Sometimes making the soul happy is more important than anything else.

The Condition My Condition Is In

As for the condition of my back/training – that’s on the up and up too.  Sunday morning it was still a little stiff, but feeling better so I got in the water and did over a mile in 45 mins.  Slower than normal, but it felt SO GOOD to be in the water (I could have kept going whereas last week I hit a definitely STOP at about 30 mins).  Yesterday, I biked for 40 mins (hills level 7), and while it wasn’t my fastest pace either, it was better than anything I’d done over a month ago.  Then, I did 30 mins of crunch time class – he modified it for me but I still got a good workout.  Shame that our lake bricks (swim/bike) with friends that we want to start doing every 2 weeks are Mondays as well.

I’m still feeling a bit nervous for running Saturday, I think the plan will be to take it easy, for the most part, with a short run Thurs with some 100m pickups (to keep the legs loose, but not sore).  I’m not going to do anything this week by running hard but hurt myself, so I’ll stay fresh and see what my legs (and back and brain) will let me do this weekend.  A goal: under 25, B goal: 26:30 (beating my second best 5k race time), C goal: crossing the finish line uninjured.  I’ll have the opportunity to get my revenge…

Take a Picture

I just looked and saw that the P5 pictures were up from the splash and dash and…ugh.  The one they caught me in, the photographer was down low (sitting) and full on to the side.  It was not pretty.  Hambeast came to mind, although I know it’s not true, it was just…bad (to be fair, EVERYONE looked bad from that angle).  However, it just got me going.  The idea that ANYONE would see me looking like that from any angle just scared the bejeezus out of me.  Then the anger.  It’s not FAIR that I work so hard and still can look like that.  And then fear.  Is losing the weight I want to going to make me happy?  I mean, is 15 lbs going to cure THAT?

I think I’ve shut the bad voice up for a while.  I’ll lose the weight, be better off than I am now for certain, maintain it for a while, and THEN see if I still feel like I need to do more.  And I need to remember this…  Two pictures on the same night, very different looks.  The camera is distorting me in both instances.  Also – I’m more than a summation of the images I leave behind.  If a few of those are unflattering, so be it.  As my image of myself changes as I change, there will always be unflattering pictures, and I don’t think they’ll freak me out less when I’m at my goal weight.  It’s all about being happy in my skin and I’m getting there.

So, I’m really having a dilemma with my race plan for the year.  I got all dorky and signed up for the Beginner Tri forums and now have access to their create-a-training plan site.  However, doing that made me really have to sit and think what my goals are for the rest of the year.  There’s about 5 months left of tri season, which then leads right into fall running season.  I really want to do at least one Olympic and one half, but now I’m questioning why, other than I did one last year and want to beat my times.  I could probably fall asleep on the bike and doggie paddle with my skillz now and PR the Oly.  It merges SO WELL into a half because I barely have to train for it.  I mean seriously.  I did a total of NINE RUNS (3×3 per week) before taper and PR’d by 8 minutes.

Last year it was an epic 3 months – it was 6 weeks between my sprint and olympic (though I was ramping up the distance way before), and then it was 6 weeks between the olympic and the half (1 week off recovering, 3 weeks training, 2 taper).  I was really mentally burnt out after the tri and kept cursing myself for registering.  All’s well that ends well, and I wouldn’t change a thing in hindsight, but I really and truly don’t know if I want to subject myself to that again.  Might circumstances be different?  Sure.  My body will probably be less wrecked since it’s been there before.  I’m not doing the job of 2 people at work like I was.  I’ll know that it’s OK to take the week after really easy and not have guilt/stress/freakouts about my body being utterly worthless 6 weeks out of the half, and that the runs will  start out really rough but get better.

I know I can do it.  I like the training.  I like the challenge.  But I’m trying to figure out WHY I really want to do the longer races.  Life would be so much easier if I stuck to sprints.  Short, super intense workouts to get FASTER.  Last year, all I could work on was building distances.  I didn’t get any faster.  It’s fun shaving time off my 5ks and seeing regular paces in the 8s and seeing my bike pace slowly creep up to 19mph on the stationary and hopefully beyond.  I know I am going to sacrifice some of this to build distance.

I guess I also feel like just doing sprints, for me, is erm…wimpy?  It’s not the right word but I guess I’m trying to say that I don’t feel like it’s all I got.  I know in my head that I should be able to just go twice as hard through half the distance and be just as spent at the end but I haven’t figured out how yet.  I have a certain tolerance of being uncomfortable, and it gets better with distance.  Once my body is in motion, it will stay in motion (to a point).  I haven’t figured out how to translate it into short bursts as well as I should.  Maybe that’s what I need to learn for this year.

There is always the fear too.  If I don’t do a half this year, and instead really chase that 5k PR, is that going to make me a bad runner?  What if my distance never comes back (my constant fear when I’m not running long – it always does when I train it to/need it to but it always feels weird when I’m running under 10 miles per week.  I did an Olympic my first year, and now I’m considering NOT?  I know in my rational brain that it’s just a different type of training and focus, and shorter is not inferior, but 5ks feel like so 2009.

I also don’t have a race picked out.  The race I did last year doesn’t actually exist this year (it’s a different course/location), and that’s ok, because I’m ok with a little less of a hellbike.  I mean, there are probably a dozen I could do in the month of September within a few hours drive, so it’s not really an issue, but I just don’t work as well without a focus.

Lastly – I seem to be making some progress with project: 150s doing as much volume as I need to do for the sprints.  I can keep weight training.  I don’t have to do 3.5 hour weekend workouts at peak.  It sounds… nice.  I didn’t gain during tri season last year but I certainly didn’t lose.

I think I’ll get through the race on June 19th and then consider my options, but it’s food for thought, and honestly, writing it out has helped me sort through some stuff in my head.

Random Bits and Bobbles

In other news, I worked most of the day, but we seem to have made some major progress and we’re getting out of the weeds.  I’m not HAPPY with weekend work, but it was obvious it had to happen.  Going in today was totally worth having the evening and the whole day tomorrow where I can just relax, not like last weekend where I was just dealing with work via email both days.  Hopefully by next week’s end things will all be back to normal.

My back is getting better, but it’s not all the way better yet.  I have resigned that this week is a loss.  If it wasn’t so crazy with work I would have been in the water every day and weight training, but ya know what?  Sometimes when you’re broken physically and exhausted mentally?  It’s time to just retreat and take some time off.  And thus I did this week.  I’ll log 2 days in the pool and nothing else.  I just have to accept that 1) this is ok and 2) either I’ll surprise myself at the 5k this weekend or I can sign up for another one and have my revenge.

We had to cancel the limo tour (ironically because one of our other friends had to work late into the evening – ah, game industry…), and it’s rescheduled for June.  Instead, we are having a very wild night involving PJs and a movie marathon, which feels much more my style after the crazy week.  Tomorrow, it’s makeup mother’s day celebrations with the fam – bbq, pool time, and playing cards.  It should be a pretty good day.

I’ve not been a saint with the food, but it’s more in terms of the content, not the calories.  Hard to eat low sodium when work’s buying you dinner or you get home too late to cook anything from scratch.  After lunch tomorrow though, it’s back to it.  We’ll see what the damage is Monday, but I’m hoping it’s not too bad.

Questions of the day: any insight on my dilemma – what would you do?  Also – what’s your go to food when you’re crunched for time/too exhausted to cook?

What’s up in Quixytown?  Read on, my friend…

Baby Got Back:

My back continues to frustrate me.  I’m not immobile, but I am definitely not healed enough to train.  I’ve been resting and stretching, but that’s not helping me PR this 5k coming up here in 1.5 weeks.  I’m just like ARGH, I’m losing all the awesome progress, I’m going to go back and struggle with under 10 min miles again or somethinggggg…

Yeah, after 2 unplanned days off.  I am really a flibbertygibbit.  What usually happens is I get better with rest.  Last year I PR’d this race after 3 weeks of no serious running, so maybe a rest will do me good.  Also – I should just go in with lowered expectations.  5ks are a dime a dozen in Austin, frankly, there is one that I can do for a 1$ donation each month (which was my second best race time).  If I don’t PR this one, it’s not the end of the world and continuing to work towards faster 5k running is something I need to do for my sprint tris anyway.

However, I’m done sitting on my ass.  I swam yesterday and it’s doable (even if it’s slow paddling or backstroking, I need to get in the water and move).  Other things I’m doing to help: advil (to keep the swelling down), ice (I should be doing it more than once a day but it’s better than nothing), sitting on the stability ball at work (I can roll around and stay fluid, sitting in a convential chair for any more than 10 mins makes me stiff), having my wonderful lovely Zliten give me massages, and stretching.  Yesterday, I got a 30 minute massage from a pro, and bit the bullet and got cracked my my chiropractor.  I was a little out of alignment, and she fixed it and I have some pain today, but it seems more like “I got worked yesterday” pain than “back is fubar” pain.  Here’s hoping I’m back to it 100% by next week!

And: note to self: don’t pick up heavy things at an angle.  It’s not worth it.  Kthx.

Weights and Measures

Monday, I was 169.8.  Tuesday – 169.6.  Wednesday? 169.0.  Today??? 168.0 I’m thrilled my body is stabilizing this week, and I’m continuing to do my lower salt, less wheat/dairy/meat thing on meals when I can.  Just trying to do my best without going insane.  Can’t lie though – looking forward to seeing those numbers go down a bit.

I do need to do a pants try on, as I have been shying away from anything under a size 9, and I think I may have lost some waist inches.  I’ll have to do that and report.  I like “unlocking” new pairs of pants!  Even if it’s not smaller, my tummy is FLATTER for sure.

Mama Said There’d Be Days Like This:

Yesterday, we had a HUGE milestone wrap up and go public, and while I don’t like to talk about exactly what I do here, we were on both the front page of CNN and MTV today (the game, not me specifically).  In a week or so, when things die down and I’ve gotten some rest and stress is a little lower, I’ll definitely admit all the crazy was worth it.

I don’t like to talk much about my job, and I definitely don’t like to talk negatively, but it’s been a HELL of a last few weeks.  I have a very short fuse right now, and little things are giving me major meltdowns (like not being able to find my car in the parking lot because Zliten reparked it).  The nice thing though?  I’m a seasoned pro.  I’ve been through this shit before.  I know that just because right now everything looks CRAZY and it’s all stress and overwhelming, I just have to get through it.  And it will end.  And things will go back to where I love my job (I guess this is where I tell my job that I LOVE it but am not IN LOVE WITH IT right now) and life is great.  Yes, to sum it up, THIS TOO SHALL PASS.  I am just allowed to be a drama queen about it until it does. 🙂

Besides a little more weekend work and continuing the fight against the dirty, disorganized house, we have fun plans this weekend.  Saturday afternoon, we’re heading downtown for happy hour and dinner at Frank (yes, that’s gourmet hot dogs ;D), and then taking a haunted limo ride ghost tour of Austin with two other couples.  It should be a really fun night, and we haven’t been downtown in quite a while.

Then, we’ll be returning downtown on Tuesday for another Yelp Elite event – dancing at a gay club!  I can’t wait to get all FABULOUS and dancy.  I will totally have to get out my princess crown and boa or something equally silly!  It makes me use so many exclamation points!!!

Back to the grindstone!  I’ll update soon when I can see through this mound of work and stuff to do!

I think I’m going to try something different – short posts more often.  Instead of 1-2 epic long posts a week, I’m going to pop on and spout off more frequently.  So, consider this your daily dose of Quix.  Hopefully it doesn’t make you do this…

The good:

I got on the scale this morning and saw 169.8.  I have not weighed in under 170 on a Monday in a while.  So, that’s happy!  While it’s definitely not a low weight, it is VERY encouraging to not fluctuate so wildly.  We’ll see where this week takes us (by us, I mean me and uh…my scale?)

I’ve also noticed that I’m no longer paying attention to calories.  I buy things for the sodium content.  I haven’t counted calories in 2 weeks.  That is kind of refreshing.  I did break down and had a coke zero while quite drunk, and it was so good, but in general – I’ve been good.  But things that happen at 4am while drinking totally actually don’t happen (as long as they don’t get you arrested or pregnant) so we’ll just move along, shall we?

Lunch was SO SO good and So SO easy!  I took a bunch of brown rice, topped it with frozen stir fry veggies, added some sesame oil, and topped with liquid aminos and some chili garlic chinese hot sauce.  It wasn’t NO salt, but the aminos (tastes like soy sauce without the crazy salt content) has 6% of DV and the hot sauce has 5%, and I don’t think I used quite a whole serving of both.  There was maybe a little too in the canned baby corn I added (but rinsed).  Maybe 20% overall, and being that it was my whole lunch, I’m totally cool with that.  A little low in protein since I didn’t throw any shrimp or chicken in there, but a big bowl of greek yogurt for breakfast and a mess of tilapia tacos for dinner should make up for that.

I had a nice run Saturday.  I wanted to run outside so I skipped the treadmill hill work, and did an out and back of about 4.2 miles (plus warmup and cooldown, probably close to 5 miles).  The out was an easy downhill run at about a 10:20 pace, and then the back was a harder uphill run – my goal was negative splits.  It was HOOOOOOT by that time (85 and humid) so I wasn’t sure I was going to make it, but I pulled 9:40s on average.  My legs were definitely letting me know that they were not ready to run harder so I was ok with it.

The Bad:

I worked a lot of hours last week, had to do a lot of work and monitoring over the weekend, and still banging my head against stuff today. Hopefully one more week of this max and things can go back to chill happy fun time.  Love what I do, but it’s not a low stress job at all.  I’m just usually a low stress gal.  I did actually shout out my office today “OMFG” (but the long, sailor-y version) when something went south – loud enough that quite a few of my team heard me and turned their heads.  Good times.  I am a loopy girl.

Due to work, didn’t get to go see my Mom for Mom’s Day.  Oh well, next weekend we have plans for a makeup celebration (playing in the pool, yummy food, and games, ya know, the norm).  And I got her a card, on time even (I usually send cards a few months late, it’s kind of a joke now).

Visited friends that live way South on Saturday.  Then, went to visit friends that live way North.  Had to return to both places on Sunday.  The round trip took 2 hours!  I would like to transplant all my friends to my neighborhood, please and thank you.  Also, I HATE DRIVING.  It’s been a long time since I’ve had to drive anywhere unfamiliar, and the mix of tired (read: drinking way late the night before), contacts still in from the night before (read: drinking way late the night before), and it being dark (nothing to do with me drinking late last night) didn’t help but it made me nervous – I can fly on a trapeze just fine but driving makes my heart flutter sometimes.  Someday, I’ll be able to hire a driver.

I was going to attempt a week of food blogging, with pictures even, but my brain leaves my body when food is around and I forget.  I have mad respect for you food blogger people.  You must have a lot of self control and brainpowers that I don’t have.

The Ugly:

Picking up some selzer water from the grocery store, I threw out my back again.  ARGH!  It’s not too bad, but I’m definitely taking today off and I bet tomorrow too.  This is NOT helpful with my 5k in 2 weeks I want to rock.  Send healing thoughts please!  I have been sitting on my ball today rolling it around so I’m staying mobile but I’m looking forward to icing when I get home.

See you soon (er than normal, hopefully) peeps!